I'm not ready

In both my Monday classes, we were talking about dating and marriage. It stirs up thoughts in my mind of my past "relationships", if you would even call them that. Yes, there are a couple that qualify as a real relationship. And one that I thought would last forever. But to jump into that again- dating, commitment, boyfriend/girlfriend, leaves me uneasy.
I don't think I'm ready.
Thats the truth of the situation. Its hard to accept. But you have to be ready for it. There are things that you have to let go of, get over, prepare yourself.
I am preparing myself.
I am preparing myself for the person God has for me. I don't know when they will come into my life, or if they already have. But I'm not going to jump into anything just because I like the idea of being with someone, always having someone there.
Because there is someone there. You just can't see Him.
And before I give my heart away (again), my love has to be for Him, and only Him.
Time. Patience. Waiting.
Sometimes the right things are also the hardest.
And I know too well that this is the right thing to do.
And I also know that it is the hardest.